And the last journal sub for this week

... is to Cream City Review. Whew; I did it. One day off and I have to start another week. It really freaked me out that a process which is starting to get much easier for me, on the whole, became suddenly so challenging from Tues - Thurs. I kept running into stupid barriers. Like I would research the journal and find stuff of mine that seemed to fit their vibe, and then I’d click on the subs page and the reading period would be from Sept - Dec. Or I would research the journal etc. etc. and they would have a no sim subs policy + an 8 month response time. Come on people! It got so painful to sit in front of computer b/c of back. I start PT for back on Monday. I am nonplussed. 

Is that word one of those like cleave that mean the opposite thing at the same time? I should really look that up. Lazy writer. Lazy.

Why isn’t there a journal called Cleave? I googled cleave magazine and came up with nothing except a youtube video about some chick with huge those-can’t-be-real tits. Boring. Bad pun. No cookie.

Journal submissions

I’ve been behind on my journal subs this week since I haven’t been feeling so well. I caught up (mostly) today by sending to Eleven Eleven, kill author, and La Petite Zine. I need one more tomorrow and I’ll be caught up for the week.

I would never do this but

… right now my one cat, the grumpy old man on a diet, is yowling for his dinner which isn’t due for another hour. And I would like to shove him in a burlap sack. And tie the sack up really tight. And then when the bus stops outside my house (there is a bus stop outside my house), run onto the bus, drop the sack, and run back into my house.

pain

Back spasms so consistently bad (three weeks woo!) that I have finally broken down and tried to make appt with physical therapy place. Except they were (very nicely) like, “You need a script for that.” So now I gotta go two places I don’t wanna go. Except PT will help me get better or at least back on track. Thinking about checking out new fibro facility that mixes traditional with holistic therapies. Still has name of large hospital attached to it so the wonk factor (we’ll give you 50 dubiously helpful algae supplements and take your $1000) is lowered. I am TRYING to keep a positive ATTITUDE. Motherfuckers. Now I am going to skulk off crankily.

Monday morning submission

Caketrain : amazing local journal by whom I eagerly anticipate being rejected.

Make-up submission for this week

… is to Puerto del Sol. A magazine that’s been on my periphery for a long time.  I was pleasantly surprised to find was AWESOME when I looked into it. Hard to type with cat jumping on hands.

exploding dog

Setting reachable goals!

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Friday's journal submission

… is to Prick of the Spindle. Nice journal. Pretty. Good poems. :)

Today's journal submission

...is to Rattle. I know I’m behind by one and I meant to make it up today except I had lots of stuff to do outside and now: the pain. News flash: I have fibromyalgia. And if you have this too, or any chronic pain issue, you know what I’m talkin about. Sitting at the computer is no longer an option. But I’ll do it tomorrow, I swear. Collapse time now.

repeat me

Today's journal submission

… is to Weave. I love when I stumble across a gem from my own city that I had not previously known existed.

Messy silence

Monday's journal submission

…is to Poetry. I don’t know what brings me to submit there. I’m surprised that my pre-jection has not already arrived. Speaking of, I got rejected by Diagram in less than 72 hours. Damn. Do they have to send ‘em out so fast? 

Today was not my best day. I did laundry. I did not take a shower.

Tomorrow’s submission will be small and local.

Early morning Saturday

Diagram is my special Saturday-making-up-for-Thursday journal submission. I cannot convey to you how deeply I adore this journal. If I could make a journal, it would be this one.  

Villain (invisibl)

Today's journal submission

…Cimarron Review. I did not do one yesterday because I have chronic muscle spasms in my back and I’ve pulled it three times this week. Iceheatdrugsheatice-liedowngetupstretchwalkheaticedrugs… I’m so worn out. And also a bit stir crazy. I’ve got one all set for tomorrow though so it will still be 5x per week. And I really really love tomorrow’s journal…..

Today's journal submission

… is to the Colorado Review.  

You know, this is a solitary act. I kind of have to put one foot in front of the other and hope something good will happen. 

Today's journal submission

… is to redivider. A journal I’ve loved from way back. Not the least because its title is a palindrome. 

And now, the cats will eat my face.

And behind the door is...

Today's journal submission

… is to AGNI.  

Today was rough. Briefly, and b/c no one reads this anyway:

1) I have PTSD
2) There were strange men working on our house all day
3) I was home alone with them
4) … today was rough
5) BUT I GOT THE DAMN SUBMISSION IN and that is what matters. 

Today's journal submission

… is to jubliat. Check out their current issue!

It took every thing I had to bust it out today. I have the flu. Hopefully will feel better by Monday. 

Heartbeats and butterfly wings

Today's journal submission

Bellevue Literary Review.

It’s hard working with the new kitten being all kittenish.

New semester's project

So my project for the spring semester, the semester of QUITTING MY JOB, is this:

• One journal submission per weekday.
• One press submission per week.
• Take “Reading Experimental Women Poets” class.
• Write more.
• Do not let free-floating anxiety / winter depression eat you alive.